"Y that SOMEONE"

A day comes in your life, n you are all alone.....

searching for 

 "SOMEONE"  to care, 

 "SOMEONE"  to think about u , 

 "SOMEONE"  to hold your hand ,

 "SOMEONE"  to wipe off your tears,

              but ..that  "SOMEONE"  is missing.

how much time do we spend searching 

for that  "SOMEONE" ..

sometimes its luck, we find our "SOMEONE"  ..sometimes we don't.

What about next?

again the process continues...

is it something what we r lagging, that again and again we are stuck into this infinite loop??

or is it js what we have been ignoring since so long!!

Why that  "SOMEONE" can't be "I"

take your own time ..

i give you a scratch 

                                                  "Aham Brahmasmi"

The answer lies in "Y".

Why is it that we hope that "SOMEONE" would come and save us form our demises?

Why we are still unhappy and think that  "SOMEONE"  someone is there and he would  help us out of the distress ..
and buy us the peace.

                         


 'Udyamen hee sidhyanti kaaryaani na manorathaih,


 nahi suptasya singhasya pravishanti mukhe mrigaah


ref :a friend

Until and unless we are not ready to help ourselves , no one's gonna help us out .

sooner we realize it...sooner begins our "aspire for "Y" " and we sooner we  are off that infinite loop of search of that....someone...:-)


                                                                                                            :begin searching "YOURSELF"

Summer of '11: 'THE CHANGE'

 The Change....
while making this blog post me talking to all my self...me ...yeah , a bit upset , but i would take it for good!!.
you might wonder , why...or how..!!
 its so because, since last couple of days, sort of things which are happening with me are not at all welcome...
but still, they tought me so many things which i have been hearing my parents saying to me , just to make sure that their child never falls into any kinda trouble,
Frankly, at the times they used to say(and even now until today) , i have been taking things away from my considerations, sort of things like for which i wud have an attitude like ,"  let come , what it may,..... i'll c"
but this is the first time i am really feeling , from my heart the feeling is rising that ....how true they are....
really.


"A challenge made to someone is always capable of filling in you the testosterone level,
whether accepted.........
or laughed at ."


since these two days,
i have met my real being,
and certainly i would say , that i dint like it much.....even after being me , and even after having thought all these years that
 "yeah, its only me who deserves"
 or
 "ugh...he is so dumb..i need not even worry if he even exists or not"


At once, some one so disliked by me , comes with the entirely un expected ways , deals me with entirely unexpected ways, treats me like a younger brother, n just says

"It hurts........." ;-(
JUST A SINGLE SENTENCE LEFT ME ALL SHIVERED........


Was it always like this, that i have been for so many years of my life ....have i been so arrogant to my whole 20 years of life......
.
.
whatever ...but now i don't want this to continue.....never....

i  want to change..
i  need to change..

i WILL change.....
i just pray god to be with me forever ...
and help me in what i decided...

may god help every one facing such "self"....